Well, this year has definitely had some
of the best days of my life…and some of the hardest. I love being a wife and mom. It’s all I’ve ever wanted. I think The Lord for these precious gifts of
my husband, baby girl, and getting to stay home with her because my hubby’s job
allows me to do that. The sleepless
nights are tiny hardships compared to the joys these gifts bring me.
The month of May was not my favorite. Actually, May sucked. Two wonderful grandfathers passed away within
3 weeks of each other. They lived long, happy
lives. Papa was 89 and Pawpaw was 90. They were both very loving and caring men who
are deeply missed.
When I started blogging again about a
year and a half ago after a 5 year break, I tried to make a list of subjects to
focus on, one being “To share life and thoughts” and another “To voice what The Lord is
teaching me more often than I have the last few years.”
Well, these last few months have been teaching
me to continually hold on to Jesus.
When I have 2 funerals in less than 3
weeks, it is hard to put The Lord up front in my life, but I want to hold on to
Jesus.
When baby girl all of a sudden decides
to wake up every 3 hours like she’s a newborn, it is hard to think of getting
in The Word during the day, but I want to hold on to Jesus.
When my house is a wreck and I just want
to organize, but I’m sleepy, the baby is demanding my every moment, I have a
headache, and I need to go grocery shopping before the stormy weather starts
AGAIN, I NEED JESUS.
And honestly, I haven’t been good at
holding on to Him lately. I haven’t been
good at focusing on Him. I’m tired. I want to nap or watch tv or do something
else that requires very little brain activity when I finally have “Leslie Time”. That may be what I want, and yes sometimes I
really do NEED a nap, but sometimes I’m just wanting to be selfish or lazy with
my time.
Sometimes, I will find more rest in His
Words than a nap can give me. I will be
more satisfied in time with my Savior than with a clean house. And the baby demanding my attention, should
see me choose Jesus, even if it means I just walk around the house with her
while I sing His praises as her lullabies.
I want to hold on to Jesus more than I
have lately. Thankful that his mercies
are new every morning. June is a new
month. I pray that it is a much better
month than May.
~Leslie~
P.S.
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